A New Beginning 

I got a job offer before my long trip . I'm suppose to be happy but… though the monthly pay is higher , the annual package is lower. Is this your idea of abundant , Lord? I disagree respectfully. I’ve endure a lot of unfairness this season but I’m not taking it anymore. I wont swallow any SHIT anymore!!

Virtually every area of my life is broken ( my parents died, no perm job, betrayal from family over assets) including my eye sight and knees now. I don’t know why the supply of the part time job stop then the perm job interviews come and the job offer . but I wont accept a lousy offer. Where is the restoration? I won’t accept more subtraction. It’’s enough . I tried to depend on you but if you are like other fair weather friends, I’ve no choice but to switch to depend on myself.

My part time job income is dwindling 2 weeks before my trip. I had enough of cutting expenses. There is only so much I can cut . After a while, it becomes meaningless. I told the Lord, if you don’t give me a husband then you need to give me a job to support myself and my dream ( ie travel around the world) .

My overseas trip had never been so eventful. It started with my boots soles came off at the Dubai airport, then my luggage lock malfunctioned on the 1^st day of my trip. Amazingly, in the midst of my extreme tiredness , I managed to think of a super cheap way to resolve the shoes issue. I wore my socks over my boots so that the soles can stay intact. It lasted 2 days then I was able to buy another pair of cheap boots( S$20+) at the mall near my hotel in Russia. Next, my room’s toilet flash was not working and the staff made me waited for an hour to inform that they may change my room tomo morning. The next morning, I was pushed from one restaurant to another for my complimentary breakfast. I broked down and shouted at the reception staff. No one gave me clear instructions that I need to produce the voucher instead of the room key.

The recruiter suddenly came back with a better offer. At least, it’s very close to my last annual renumeration. Before my flight, I told her that I will reply her whenever I have access to wifi.I was still sitting on the fence and had to focus on what my counsellor on what is important to me in my career. 2 of the factors are still unknown but I’ve to decide whether to take the leap or not ? I realised that I must find meaning in the job for me to stay there longer. Hence, it’s a plus for this industry who made me the job offer. There was no clear direction from God.

I accepted the job offer out of exhaustion , my 1^st thought. Not the best reason , Lord but I’ve tired of attending interviews. Too many before my trip zz. After I returned home, I suddenly realised that their offer had built my last drawn monthly allowance into the basic salary. Wow how did that happen? God’s grace. I need to work extra 3 years in my last organisation to get to that level. That’s restoration Lord! Part of me is unhappy that my ex boss did not appreciate by  promoting me. Most people get promoted after 2-3 years but mine was overdue.

I am thankful for the victory but it’s not easy as I need to consciously rest in the Lord. He did deliver.